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Moved

2006-03-01T09:23:00.000-08:00

Permanently moved to :

www.djnavv.com

.. I figured ... randomness deserves a place of its own ;-)

Incorrigible Love

2005-02-17T03:22:00.000-08:00

Change the pen to write something better
But the words come out the same
I change the object of love
But i still still feel the same old pain

( wrote it sometime last year .... march / april .. found it scribbled somewhere and editted it a bit )

2004-12-27T01:17:00.000-08:00

Pond

.......?..

2004-12-24T13:43:00.000-08:00

.......?..

where

2004-11-14T22:53:00.000-08:00

what i dont know right now is which is louder , the music or my heartbeat

2004-11-14T22:43:00.000-08:00

the nights not that dark
the chill , its makes me shrug
we've flown far apart
ur thought seduces me like a drug

i smile while looking away
and turn my gaze to the ground
its still way too cold
without the love i once found

but i gotta move on, just the way i once did
this is a choice, just the way i chose
go on through with life left behind
hands trembling after killing a beautiful rose

i will lie down again
before i sit before you
give in myself this time
to your soul so true

the wait is long as you know
i cant kill the time if i wanted to
i made a choice in this life
if i die it wont be enough to get to you

i can only think, cant feel
i can only wish it was not real
one will changed it all, the way it stands before me
its blowing the wind again, its getting hard to see

i pray now, like a beleiver turned athiest
it swings too high for me to reach
i left you for a life i still just see
you left me for a life too far for me to be

Tiesto .... umm ...

2004-09-24T13:54:00.000-07:00

never thought his new album wud fade out onme so soon
guess it was just the early excitement ...

infact kinda sucks ....
tiesto gud tracks ...
delerium
close to you
flight 643 ( just coz of some old memories )
..WHA ??? THATS IT ???
i'm glad though ....... lol

“Notes alongside an introduction to explanations”

2004-09-12T11:07:00.000-07:00

“This is the ghost of everyday assumptions which declares that the ultimate purpose of life, which is to keep alive is impossible but that this is the ultimate purpose of life”
-Robert M Pirsig

This brings to mind immortality, a topic that has become immortal itself. One which has to be ironically, mortalized to make sense of the whole underlying principle itself.
Since the time principles and justifications and theorems have existed, we have tried and successfully tried to give everything an age. Anything that comes across as an ongoing process has been forever and ever, given a lifetime. Every living organism has an age, after which, in scientific terms, it dies. The stars have been given lifetimes, the whole universe has been given a lifetime. Perpetual motion is time bound. It has been justified so. We try to rationalise our quest for an “ageless” life by saying that technology, which is mortal in itself, will one day take us to a point, where we would not need to have a lifetime. Our lives would start, but not end. One cell would give birth to another, the other to another, and hence a man would be born who would grow old but not die. His cells, lets assume, would either not grow old or one would be able to get rid of the old cells and replace them with newer ones. Immortality is not a just a wanted, dreamt of phenomenon, but as we know it, now an area of research. A branch of technology.

Let us try and analyze all this from a different plane.
Rapidly changing technology has given us the confidence to think that anything can be achieved at some point of time. If enough time is spent towards a specified goal, we can really achieve it. But is it really technology that has made us so capable? Technology in itself is static. If left at a point, no progress is possible by itself. It is the change that brings the improvement in technology that has made this possible. This change is what has made technology a source of such anchored confidence. Let us try dig at the roots of this source of confidence. What brings about change? What is change? But to answer these questions in the literary sense would be useless here. That would not get us to the explanation being put forward. In reference to our pivot, i.e. technology, change can be said to be a kind of re-orientation. In the simplest form, a re-orientation of aim, path or deductions. This re-orientation takes place with the genesis of thought, or principle. This is the point where the problem has to be viewed from a different angle, a new angle. But to change ones perspective, a perspective that has been the guide to the point where change is necessary, something drastic has to happen. This is where technology shows its static nature. Here no progress is possible until you change something. You change your path or your deductions. This is a state of lull, an impasse, a hang-up. Now, you have to think and bring changes in a way you have neither anticipated, nor have you programmed your technology is such a way.

To indulge deeper into explanation, let us start from where technology starts. It starts with one basic truth that we assume. This truth, which is an assumption initially, may not be an assumption at all. It may just be a dream. But to get to that dream we need to start. We start by climbing a ladder of truths, one truth at a time in such a manner that every truth is based upon the truths lower than it in the ladder. To start building this ladder, we need one truth to start with. It might not be the most crucial one, but it is the one that starts off the process. To choose this base truth, we assume our dream to be true, and start off with the ladder.

Now, when we are building this ladder, it may be possible that the first ‘x’ truths may be placed in exactly the same order, in which they were placed to prove some other assumption. But to get to this new assumption, we have to change our orientation. This is critical to place the next truth ‘y’ so that our whole path is re-oriented.

Hence, change is required, in the aim (assumption), the path and the deduction (i.e. to understand what we have arrived at).

To make progress, the major element that provides change is the human mind. But a single, same, mind cannot provide all the change at every point. This change is provided by different people at different times, in different centuries, in different lifetimes. As people change, so does technology. It changes faster than time or nature. Mind is the most dynamic of all forces, the most unimaginable ‘changing force’ that drives progress.

This force is so dynamic that it is constantly changing itself too. Its dynamic nature can be realised by two attributes:
The ever changing state of mind.
The ever changing minds comprising the total mind-force.

New minds are born everyday and every one of these minds is changing every second.

an inscrutable love

2004-09-12T10:57:00.000-07:00

i'm struggling now
with my hair
i know that last night
i wasnt fair

yet not taken a bath
havent brushed my teeth
i kick the bed
only to hurt my feet

you left so early today
so i know things arent certainly right
even you must be thinking somewhere
i hope you're done with that before tonite

i'm waiting for you now
just dont leave me n say ur not mine
thats you n me babe
two glasses and a broken bottle of wine

i dont know why
i started off with that last night
you went to sleep
without me by your side

the dinner was good
so was the walk
its just me who fucks up the whole thing
with my smart talk

i know you wanted the night
so did i
its just these small things
i cant figure out why

i'm waiting for you now
just dont leave me n say ur not mine
thats you n me babe
two glasses and a broken bottle of wine

i dont feel so good
throughout the bright day
just calling you up again n again
but then not knowing what to say

the bed's still a mess
it smells of you
i'm feeling so alone
i dont know what to do

it feels so strange
though we've been through this before
i step out and step in again
i cant think of anywhere to go

i'm waiting for you now
just dont leave me n say ur not mine
thats you n me babe
two glasses and a broken bottle of wine

i've cleaned the mess
the bed is all done
its still smells of you though
its meant for us to have some fun

its getting dark now
so the candle's been lit
i'm looking at the street
pondering over last night's shit

the music is on
the wine is out
just come back home
baby you can shout

i'm waiting for you now
just dont leave me n say ur not mine
thats you n me babe
two glasses and a broken bottle of wine

6:15 PM 9/8/2004

why

2004-09-12T10:52:00.000-07:00

I"m still looking around ..
but maybe i have realised now that what i am looking for is not where i can ever be
it ceases to exist in my presence
it gets so abstract everytime i think about it
i didnt have any friends when i was home
maybe thats why i came here
but i dont want any friends
i dont want any friends , but i want to look for a friend
i have no idea why
i do not know if i really even want to find a friend
maybe i just want to look
it gets dark and i feel lonely
i am thirsty for solitude
i dont like emotions
but i like to control the urge to cry
when i cant cry frustration envelops me
when i cant let out that frustration, i want to cry
when i want to cry, i dont
then it hurts deep inside,and it hurts at the tip of my thumb
it pains sharp thereit tells me that i am hurt
my thumb helps me hold on to things
when it pains i have to let go
i hate what i cant have
i hate emotions

Updating

2004-09-12T10:26:00.000-07:00

just updating the site 'coz Aman asked if i'd been updating it .
just putting some crap , for the sake of it

...Planet Books

2004-08-25T13:42:00.000-07:00

http://zikri.indoglobal.com/books.html

AWESOME COLLECTION OF BOOKS ... i dont know about the editions , but great collection anyways....

What to do ??

2004-08-25T11:51:00.000-07:00

Well ... its now been almost one and a hlaf months since I landed here in Bangalore. Been going great , its a nice city ... but now i've started feeling uncomfortable with this new companion that I have ," lonliness "
Got no one to interact with ... lookin around but everyone seems to be so busy ... lets see ...

MEL How-To

2004-08-22T11:44:00.000-07:00

MEL How-To

This link is for you Alam , some MEL-how-to's ... check it out

CGNetworks Gallery%3A Robot Hopper%2C by Tristan_bethe

2004-08-22T11:41:00.000-07:00

CGNetworks Gallery%3A Robot Hopper%2C by Tristan_bethe

AWESOME image .... probabaly in some 3-D s/w .
Check out www.cgnetworks.com for some amazing photoshop/3-D tutorials

billybussey.com - The digital portfolio of Billy Bussey

2004-08-18T02:38:00.000-07:00

billybussey.com - The digital portfolio of Billy Bussey

never knew even websites needed some 3d cards to play properly .... I rate this site AWESOME !!!!

No sleep for today

2004-08-10T17:48:00.000-07:00

I've decided that to break away from my 6am-to-4pm sleeping habit , I am not going to sleep at all today. So I think I should be really sleepy till tonite by 9-10 and then go to sleep peacefully.

Just downloaded DJ Tiesto's new album "Just Be"
Especially the track: Love Comes Again

Try n get it Aman ...